Wren is TWO!!

I can't believe that my baby girl is TWO! We had a party over at Kathryn's house and Wren had lots of fun! Of course, I took a picture of her cake:



But not of her!! The cake took all night to make though so I am glad that we got a picture of it. Wren is a very smart little cookie, she is putting sentences together and it seems like she is talking all the time! I love it, she is becoming mommies little buddy! She still loves her daddy more than anything, but she is expanding her horizons! :)

Here are some other things that Wren loves:
Her Gankie (blanket)
Her baby dolls
PRINCESSES - anything that has a Disney princess on it she wants!
Tangled - the movie
ELMO
Outside! She wants to go outside everyday so I'm glad it's starting to get warmer!
Colors - she loves to color in her coloring book.
Candy
Juice
"The Kids" Valerie's kids
Bath time - especially if there are bubbles involved
"Songs" Whenever Daddy is home for bedtime they listen to "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" on his iPod together, it's super cute!
She also likes Mommy to sing "The ABC Song" and "I am a Child of God"

and here are some things that she could do without:
Oatmeal - she HATES it (me too!)
Naptime
Bedtime
Whenever any of her "people" leave the room

She's such a good 'baby' although I guess she isn't a baby anymore :( I love seeing her grow up and am so thankful that I get to be her mom. I mourn each stage that she grows out of but celebrate each new stage that she enters. I guess that is part of being a parent! Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Wren to us!

32 Weeks

32 Weeks Pregnant!

Just for me...

I know that my life is not so hard... I know that I should be so grateful for everything that I have... I know that I am so blessed... however...

sometimes things are just overwhelming and I need an outlet! This is it!

This pregnancy has been very difficult for me. I have been extremely stressed and anxious. It started when I first started spotting and I have continued to spot throughout. That combined with Jeremiah being laid off at the end of January increased my stress level a LOT! We had just gotten all of our bills out of collection and now it feels like we are right back where we started - We need a BREAK from $$ problems! Then, he was unable to find a job really quickly and so started working on the farm. I am so grateful that he was able to get this job and love dad for hiring him - however, it is a stressful job. He is gone 12-17 hours a day 6 days a week. I miss him! Wren misses him! My doctor has told me that he is not too concerned with the spotting but that I should continue to take it easy and be on semi-bed rest. Not really a possibility with the little ball of energy that we named Wren running around and trying to be a good mom to her. So sometimes I feel like I have to choose between being a good mom to Wren or a good mom to my unborn baby.

I feel like I can't really DO a whole lot to get ready for this baby. I lay awake at night making lists in my head of everything that I need to do before he arrives. Of course during the day I have no energy to do any of the things on my list! Most of the time I want to just lay in bed all day and cry or sleep. I have also been having anxiety attacks, my heart starts beating like crazy and it's hard to catch my breath. So, I talked to Dr. Hall and he gave me an Rx for wellbutrin. I am still waiting for it to "kick in" but I am really hoping that it will make a difference, not only for my well being but for the sake of my kiddos.

On the other side of this conversation - I really do love being pregnant. I love feeling this little guy moving around and punching me so hard in the middle of the night that it wakes me up! I love that whenever Jeremiah puts his hand on my stomach he gets kicked super hard and for a long time also. Wren would always stop kicking as soon as I would change positions or when Jeremiah would try to feel her. I really even love seeing my belly get bigger although I'm sure that will be a source of stress after he arrives! I also love that I haven't gained any weight with this pregnancy. Jr. is measuring fine and everything looks good, but I have just been eating fairly healthy and probably chasing Wren around has helped as well!

Thanks for listening... If you feel like I have been ignoring you or are trying to block you out of my life, please forgive me! I have been feeling like I am in a dark place lately and have not been able to see any light! I hope that things are going to be better with me in the next couple of weeks and that I can hop out of this slump - so just give me a little time, k?