just rambling....

so.... being a mom is HARD!! The thing that I think is the hardest is the worries that go along with being a parent. I don't know how my parents survived me! I was a terrible teen and I am terrified of Wren becoming me as she gets older. She is such a blessing to me and to Jeremiah but I know that it will always be hard to be a parent. Even now I wonder if I am doing it right. Am I feeding her the right things at the right time, are the bottles that I give her the right amount, do I put her down for naps at the right times? Do I put her to bed at the right time of night and get her up at the right time in the morning - sometimes it is afternoon before she wakes up? Do I give her enough baths, not enough baths? Do I play with her enough, do I read to her enough, does she feel loved? Is she doing the things developmentally that she should be doing? Is she falling behind? Should I worry if she is falling behind? All of these things are things that stress me out. However, I look at her everyday and wonder how I ever lived without her in my life. She is my sunshine and my life.