reality check

Tonight as I was taking a bath I realized that I was about to be a mom... there is going to be a little tiny baby that is entirely dependent on me coming home to our house in the VERY near future. It seems so sureal to me that this is FINALLY happening. I know that I have known for 10 months that this is a reality, but it really hits me at odd moments. I think that part of the reason that it hit me tonight is that we have been "ready" for her to come for awhile. All of the bags are packed, her room is read, I haven't gotten any cute little outfits to put away so tonight, I just noticed the baby bath sitting on the edge of the tub and bam, I'm really going to be a mother. Then I start to freak out about how am I ever going to be able to do this???!?!?! I know that I will though. I have a fantastic husband who loves me and takes such good care of me and I have a Heavenly Father who knows me and loves me and only wants the best for me who will be there for me whenever I need him. These are the things that I really have to keep in mind and they are the things that keep me going when I start to freak out.

41 Week Belly Pic

Here is my belly at 41 weeks...



Yes, I know that it is a LITTLE different than the other belly pics that I have posted but I think they are cute! :P

I'm sorry if I have offended any of you by bearing myself!

Pregnancy Update

Okay, so I went to the Dr. on Monday and was checked by the PA. She told me that I was STILL thick and closed so there was little chance that anything was going to happen without them helping mother nature along. She was going to talk to Dr. Hall about inducing me this weekend because although he is out of town for the week he was going to be back on Friday night or Saturday morning, depending on when he decided to drive back from Salt Lake. So Monica (the PA) said that she would talk to him. They would have me come in the night before they started to induce me so that they could get my cervix ripened with Cervitol then they would start the IV of Pitocin the next morning. Or so that is what I understand. The downside of all of this would be if the Cervitol does not work to ripen my cervix. Then they would end up doing a c-section. As Monica stated "Once you come in and we try to start you, you are definitely leaving with a baby".

So, Monica said that she would get back to me by Thursday. Thursday morning I got a phone call and she said that she had finally been able to Dr. Hall and he does not feel comfortable starting me so soon.... He is afraid that if he starts me this weekend that I will end up with a c-section and so he would like to give it the extra couple of days to see what my body does on its own.

So, I was pretty upset and depressed today because I really don't want to have to wait all the way until the next weekend but the only other day during the week that he 'induces' is on Wednesday, which is April fools day. Which by the way, everyone but me thinks that this is just "Awesome". Yeah, it's awesome for all of us, but what about her, I would HATE to have my birthday be on April fools!!!

Anywho, so I have an appointment on Monday afternoon and we will have to decide what we are going to do by then... Until then I guess that I will just have to pull myself together and hope that I can get a good nights sleep between now and when she is born since those will probably be out the window once she is born!

Water For Elephants and My Sisters Keeper

A book written by Sara Gruen....

I started reading this book a couple of days ago and could not remember why I had purchased it. I didn't remember even what the general plot was about. When I started, I was actually a little disappointed because it is about a train circus back in the depression-era and is told from the point of view of an old man. So, I had a little bit of a hard time getting "into" the book. tonight, I started reading the book at 10:00 p.m., I was on page 40, and just finished the rest of it. It is 335 pages long! I got totally engrossed and fell in love with all of the characters. I will have to say that it has a lot of sex in it and there is also a lot of inappropriate language, so don't go out and read it if those kinds of things are offensive to you. But the lesson learned is a good one. We should really value the presence of people, no matter who they are. We should respect our elders and know that they have so many interesting things to say. Yes, sometimes it is hard to get past the "same old" stories that you hear all the time but the truth is that every person is unique and interesting and how great would it be to cherish every single bit of that while they are still around for you to be able to!

Anyway, this was a great book and probably one that will stay on my mind for awhile. I have read quite a few really good books like this lately and really love diving into the world of fantasy even if sometimes it is a little depressing like the Jodi Picoult books that I have been reading. She is quite amazing also.

The first book that I read of hers was called "My Sister's Keeper". It was about a girl who was conceived so that she could be a "donor" for her sister then when she was 13 she decided that she didn't want to be "the donor" anymore. That is all that I will say about the plot because you can read that much on the back of the book. The thing that I loved the most about her writing was that she didn't take a side on the issues that were presented. She simply stated the facts from every persons angle and let you decide what your opinion would be from that. I'm still not entirely sure what I would do in the situation that each character was put in and I don't think that I would ever know unless I was (heaven forbid) put into that position. This book also uses the "f" word several times so don't read it if you are going to yell at me later that about that, the book is great though and I would recommend it to my dad!

Well, now I am just rambling on about the book but I definitely think that you should read that one.

Oopsie!

Yesterday, Isaac asked Valerie if he could come over to my house while Bella was at dance so that he could play with the toys all by himself. She had him call me and of course, I could not tell that cute little voice no so he came over at about 10:30 a.m. to play. He was a PERFECT angel! After Bella got done at dance, Isaac and I met the rest of the Hendricks' over to Bajio where we had lunch then Isabella wanted to come over and have a nap at my house. I told her she could (Yes, I am a sucker and can't say no to those kids!) and Isaac started to cry because he wanted to come over and sleep at my house also! Let me just say here, I am not sure what the facination with SLEEPING at my house is, but when Isaac cries he get these HUGE alligator tears and they stick to his mile long eyelashes and it is very sad for me!! So, they both got to come over and sleep in my bed for their naps. They were very good and did not talk to each other or anything, just laid right down and went to sleep. And boy did they ever sleep. They both slept for about 3 hours!!!!

After they woke up they were watching Atlantis and wanted to have some candy so they were out looking through the "candy drawer" and Isaac just starts freaking out... yeah, he had peed his pants! So I took him in and put him on the potty while I tried to figure out what I had that could possibly fit him..... this was the result:

Cute, huh! It was quite hilarious but he didn't seem to mind in the least! It was really quite adorable!! See how happy he looks? hehe

Okay, so I went to the dr. yesterday and still nothing is happening.... still.... I know, everyone says, better in than out... when she comes out that is when the real work begins. I am just so very anxious to meet her! I know that Jeremiah is also. And the worst luck is this: Dr. Hall is going out of town next week. What the heck? So I will go in and have his P.A. check me (who I love, btw) and he said that he was 99% certain that when he got back the next monday that I would still be pregnant. This after me telling him that I would like some good news today! :) HA!! So, the plan is that he will induce me then if nothing is still happening. My dilemma is that I believe he only induces on Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sundays. I don't want to have to wait until that weekend to have her, but Wednesday is April Fools... How cruel would that be?!?! So, I don't know what to do at this point... Any suggestions would be more than welcome!

On another happier note, the bathroom is finished!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! It looks soooo great, I love it. I love that it is done and my house is back to normal. I have it all cleaned and sparkly and really don't want to even live in it until after I deliver! :) So, I guess now I get to start cleaning the basement so that I have something to do until she arrives!

This is Kevin before the tile was done on the shower.

If you can't read what the "writing on the wall" says it says:

"This shower tiled by Uncle Kevin with Love for "little baby Wren" Happy life little Girl!"

ahhhh, he's so sweet! He seriously spent hours and hours and days over at our house doing the tile in the shower. Making sure that every cut was perfect and that every tile was perfectly set. It looks so professional and I am so very grateful for the help that he gave to us. He's the bestest! Love you Kevin! :)

WOO HOO The bathroom is pretty much done!!

All that needs to be done now is to seal the grout and we are GOOD TO GO!!!!!!!!

Thank you soooo much Kevin and Jeremiah for getting this project taken care of before the baby came!

of all people!!! Valerie told me that I need to update my blog!!! Seriously lady! :)

Well, all I really have to say is that today was beautiful! It was 50 degrees outside and I think that spring is actually on the way! I even heard thunder... what a beautiful sound!! I loved it!

I went to the doctor yesterday and my cervix is still all plugged up, so much so that he could not even tell which part of junior was facing down!! So I guess we are still playing the waiting game. I guess that is not a bad thing since the bathroom is still not done and we are having to sleep downstairs because I have to go to pee 15 times every night!! I really REALLY love sleeping down there since we only have a queen size bed down there and let me tell you... I am no small girl right now and J is not tiny himself!! We take up that WHOLE bed!! especially with all of pillows propping me up as well! :)

Oh, I did invite Isabella and Daria to my baby shower, and Isabella is soooo excited about it! I was over at her house tonight and pretty much the only thing that she could talk about was the "party" and what she was going to wear and bring and what we should eat (peanut butter and honey sandwiches) and when she was going to go shopping with grandma. Grandma called when I was there also and she was jumping up and down and screaming because she was so excited! It was adorable!! She also always gives the baby hugs and kisses. I think that it is very sweet!